Thursday 21 August 2014

Chapter 13- So much to plan, so many reasons to be happy.

Recently, I have been in a constant 'must plan all the things' mode and a 'smile constantly' mode. 


One of the things I can't stop thinking about and planning, is mine and Jacks house. I have already created mood boards for the kitchen, bedroom and bathroom; we haven't even got solid plans for moving out yet. How sad is that?
But I seriously can't help it, as you can see from the image above I also have a problem with thinking far too much about what candles will be in each room. Our house shall have more candles than furniture and Jack will have to deal with it.

The far more important thing I need to start planning, is my business. Which I'm meant to be starting up in just a few weeks. I need to plan what I will be selling, where I will be selling it, how I will use my time and so much more. I will admit I feel extremely stuck. This is a huge venture and although many people are trying to start their own business these days, not many seem to succeed. So I also need to plan marketing strategies and all that crap.
My main problem here is, that there are far too many things I want to do. Full blame for this can be thrown at Kat Von D for being so wonderful that I couldn't help but aspire to use every single one of my talents in my business like she has managed to. I am so determined to do everything I feel I can but patience is not something that I bestow. Therefore the whole 'sensible' thing of 'taking it in steps', doesn't sound good enough to me.  




Anyway on to the second subject of today's blog: Happiness!
So many reasons for this emotion. In fact maybe not, maybe I just feel super happy at the moment? But there definitely are a few contributing factors. 
  1. I passed my theory test!! Thank fricking goodness for that. I definitely suggest using Theorytestpro for revision. It's brilliant.
  2. Even though Jacks glorious 'Finn The Human' like hair has been cut off, I can feel myself falling more and more in love with that boy. Which may be a strange thing to put on this list, but knowing our relationship is doing nothing but moving forward (even after nearly two years, which can be strange for young relationships) is definitely a good reason to be happy. 
  3. I am a few weeks away from completing my apprenticeship and I cannot wait. I get a good qualification, get to keep my job where I work (obviously not as an apprentice) and I will be starting my own business. I can slowly feel my life moving forward;which is something I have been waiting for, for about 5 years now. 
  4. I feel a lot better in myself in general. I feel healthier (apart from still smoking), more clever, less brain dead, wanted and I almost feel as if I will succeed in my life. 
  5. I'm sat here trying to think of a point five and all I'm doing is looking at all my books and thinking 'mmmmmm'. So yes. My books make me insanely happy. More please. 
  6. I have my first car. I HAVE MY FIRST CAR. And I haven't even done my practical test yet.... But here she is! I have named her Bertha. She was originally white but we gave her a makeover and now she is a 'pimpin' matte black (and no, the doors haven't been nicked this was taken before the doors were put back on)

7. OH and how could I forget? I turn 20 in a few weeks. This means I get to say good bye to the horrible 'teenager' label, yet still act like one. Perfect.



I think... that may be about it for now. All I currently know is I have a lot of shit to sort out and a lot to smile about. And I can guarantee you do to (mainly the 'smile about' part..hopefully...I bet you do).




Sunday 17 August 2014

Chapter 12, Facing your fears...

...even if they are what people would call 'silly' or 'irrational', facing your fears can be super hard. Well I say that but after facing two of mine this weekend I feel a lot more at ease when it comes to throwing those fears out the window.


So first things first, this weekend I went paint balling. Shooting people with paint? Yeah I'm cool with that. Getting huge bruises and pain from being shot by paint balls? Yeah I'm cool with that too. However going out with my hair looking like crap tied up in a messy bun with no effort at all? No fricking way am I cool with that. I have never had the confidence to go out in public with my hair not all pretty and fixed into place with hair spray. Never. It may seem ridiculous to you but I have an extreme problem with my hair and I was so scared at the start of the day. I felt shakey and nervous. I kept hiding behind Jack (the bf) and just trying to keep my face out of site. Gradually throughout the day I started feeling better and well basically not giving a shit. I have never felt so liberated when it comes to how I look. I wouldn't ever do it when going out out but atleast I am now confident enough to do sports again. All sounds lame yes but I feel much happier knowing I can now enjoy myself again, I have missed doing sporty things.

So, this next one you are going to be extra confused or astonished; and you will probably think I'm very shallow. My gorgeous man has been growing his hair the whole time I've been with him and I have been loving it. It's nice to play with, nuzzle in to and is just pretty in general cause of the beautiful golden colour. (Bec if you're reading this I'm not weird I swear) Now one of my fears was Jack getting his hair cut off. DUN DUN DUN! Seriously, I'm not joking. I have been so worried that he just wouldn't look like..my Jack. Today, Jack got his hair cut. Now for normal people this isn't huge but for me this was tense. Watching all that glorious hair falling to the floor...making his neck visible..and his eyes stand out more...and suddenly it's not as bad. When I finally had the courage (yes I am that sad) to look at him properly I was just like why did I get so silly, it isn't that bad at all?! He looks waaaaaay younger now but other than that I don't understand why I was scared. And after all it's him who's drawn the short straw because now that he has so little hair, how am I meant to brush it and play with it? SUCKER.

Any way so that's that. They may not have seemed rational or important to you, but I have rid myself of two fears. And you can do it too. Big or small all fears can be fought. Although I plan to never fight my fear of flying (hypocrite... FU). 

Sorry for another serious post, it'll be the last one I swear...





Monday 11 August 2014

Chapter 11, Standing up for yourself



This post isn't as serious as it sounds but I really want people to start realising it is worth it to stand up for what you believe and who you are. Not in a way that is bitchy and nasty, but you still need to some how get across 'this is how I feel, I am letting you know and I want something done about it'. 

I recently found out that, to finish my apprenticeship, I needed to do a whole new exam for my ICT and for my maths. This is because the apprenticeship body, for some crazy bloody reason, doesn't accept GSCE ICT or Math Additional (higher) paper. Now I got top grades for ICT and for the maths I got a D in the normal paper BUT a good grade in the higher paper. Now surely that counts right? Nope they don't accept additional papers even though I did better at the harder paper than the easier one... surely that shows something? Surely that shows the education system that maybe, just maybe, some things aren't hard enough for us any more? The bad grades aren't necessarily about someone not being clever or being lazy, it's actually just pure boredom. If something bores you, not matter how good you are at it, you're not going to put much effort into it. I certainly don't.
ANYWAY so I voiced my opinion to the body, thinking that I was probably one of the few apprentices that bothered trying to get them to listen. And guess what? Today i received an email explaining that it worked. They've decided to accept my Maths Additional paper but not my ICT. Now this is a huge step in my opinion, alright I still have to do one of the exams but having a proper qualification in ICT sounds like a good idea to me.


Getting people to listen to you is a huge problem in this world; when you finally get to have your say and have people take in what you're saying it is such a good feeling. So this whole thing has taught me that standing up for yourself is really important. Although the exam wasn't a huge problem in my life, it certainly wasn't something I felt I needed to do.
And many people will know, if I don't want to do something, I won't. Now this can be a huge problem in some cases, but it is simply about learning what you genuinely do not need to do.
And if you feel you're right about what you want to do and don't need to do, voice it and stick by it. Don't get upset if it goes wrong.
Remember standing up for yourself can come with consequences, but they aren't the problem it's being able to deal with them that is. When I quit college, no one was happy with me and I had to deal with that. I had to deal with the pain of finding a job and being alone quite often, watching everyone live their lives while I sat at home getting fat and lazy. But I stuck at it. I knew that I wasn't meant to be at college, I stood up for how I felt and now because of that I can use a tattoo machine (though be it not well), I've learnt a lot of life lessons and I now have the perfect job, boyfriend, nearly the perfect mind set and I'm closer to the life I want. Closer than I feel I would have been if I had spent several years at college and uni.

SO anyway i will stop babbling now and start thinking of a more fun blog to write for tomorrow c: Maybe some kind of review and then on Friday you might be able to enjoy my favourite moments of this month so far c:

I hope you feel better about standing up for your self, because unless your a murderous twat, what harm does it really do to let people know this is you and they have to deal with it? 
Exactly. None. 
Go be you <3


Wednesday 6 August 2014

Chapter 10, 2B or not 2B?



DO YOU GET IT? 2B OR NOT 2B?!
Seriously though, guess what the pencil is.


On another note, I should be writing my second favourite book (out of my top 5 for this year so far) BUT I am of course feeling far too lazy and will do it later on when my brain has awoken. For now you can endure my ramblings about all the things on my rather extensive To Do list.

So first of all there's revise for my theory test, find a new driving instructor, pass theory test, pass practical, buy car, insure car, drive car. Just tones of 'adult' car shit that is really starting to stress me out! It's such a huge process learning to drive, although, once used to the driving part, incredibly fun and I can't wait to have my own car. I'm definitely looking forward to being able to drive my self random places and exploring with my camera.

Second, there's all things business related. Commissions, adding more to my portfolio, rustling up ideas, having too many ideas, getting myself out there and known, do more writing and reading. Again it's so much to handle all at once. 'Take it step by step' is a very valid point, however it's not how my brain works and refuses to even think about working that way (which would make so much more sense).

I then also have all the stuff I need to finish for my apprenticeship, along side several exams for it. If it weren't for how terribly EASY the work books are I wouldn't particularly mind, but I should have finished my apprenticeship months ago (I'm not allowed to finish it before the end date, how shit is that?).

And lastly (for now) is all the stuff i want and need. There always has been and always will be waaaay too much of it. New camera, laptop, clothes, books, own place, car, tattoos, piercings....
Not just material items but things that I really really really want and need to do but never get round to doing or am simply to tired or have no time. WHAT IS LIFE?

I shall leave you on that note as I don't want to bore you with my annoying to do list which is far bigger than what I've have written.
Oh and don't forget to guess whether the pencil is 2B or not 2B



Tuesday 29 July 2014

Chapter 9, Top 5 Books


So over the last year I've brought and read an insane amount of books and I am now going to somehow tell you my top five so far, which is almost impossible because nearly every book I have read lately has been ridiculously amazing.

So I think we should start off with one I finished this weekend...and only started reading this weekend. Yes it is that good.

The Eye Of Minds

This book. This fricking book. It has been a long time since I have found something as un-put-downable as my favourite series (The Mortal Instruments).

Summary:
"Michael is a gamer. And like most gamers, he almost spends more time on the VirtNet than in the actual world. The VirtNet offers total mind and body immersion, and it’s addictive. Thanks to technology, anyone with enough money can experience fantasy worlds, risk their life without the chance of death, or just hang around with Virt-friends. And the more hacking skills you have, the more fun. Why bother following the rules when most of them are dumb, anyway?

But some rules were made for a reason. Some technology is too dangerous to fool with. And recent reports claim that one gamer is going beyond what any gamer has done before: he’s holding players hostage inside the VirtNet. The effects are horrific—the hostages have all been declared brain-dead. Yet the gamer’s motives are a mystery.
The government knows that to catch a hacker, you need a hacker.And they’ve been watching Michael. They want him on their team.But the risk is enormous. If he accepts their challenge, Michael will need to go off the VirtNet grid. There are back alleys and corners in the system human eyes have never seen and predators he can’t even fathom—and there’s the possibility that the line between game and reality will be blurred forever."



Although this is a concept we have seen a few times, I personally feel it is still one that isn't easily found nor done well. However James Dashner, has perfected this concept and managed to write a thrilling book with an ending that, lets say, I completely did not expect (although it was one of those endings where you're like I totally should have guessed that...). 
You easily become involved in the characters, even though they aren't described in huge detail, considering most of the time they are in the VirtNet playing as someone other than themselves. I don't read many books by male authors and always forget how much I enjoy male authors writing styles and Dashner's has to be one of the best, you get a nice break from all that frilly romantic crap and instead get to concentrate on an exciting story line that doesn't revolve around doing every thing you can for your loved one blah blah blah.
Ok I'm going off on a tangent now, back to The Eye of Minds. I highly recommend this book to all book worms. I do believe any one could get drawn into this book, however if you like books such as The Mortal Instruments, Delirium, The Hunger Games, The Iron Fey and pretty much anything fantasy or scifi, then you will adore this book. 



I personally can not wait to read the next book, so go give it a go bitches!


So there we go, my first book from my Top 5 Books. Look out for the next 4!


Tuesday 22 July 2014

Chapter 8, 10 happy occurrences.


I noticed my last too post titles ended with 'bitch', I had to resist the urge to triple it, that has nothing to do with the point of this blog.

Anyway, so lately I've been doing an insane amount of thinking and rethinking about myself, the people around me and my life. The out come? I'm starting to feel myself again (took your bloody time...shutup).

SO as everyone seems to be posting positive statuses lately, about the good things that happened during their week, I thought I would post a little blog for mine instead c:

My ten happy occurrences so far this month:

  1. I reached a milestone on my Facebook page (photography & art) AND have my first 8 commissions to complete, not only that but my first bit of business!
  2. As well as reaching my milestone, I'am also slowly progressing in my art and photography (and any other creative things I try to do) and I can feel my confidence starting to climb. I'm starting to learn how to edit the lighting, perfect angles and scenery for images. I'm also learning how to look at things better when drawing, where I'm going wrong and how to make it better. 
  3. I learnt that I'm better at drawing men than women, this is a ridiculous realisation for me as I've never properly drawn a man before. I did this drawing of Ragnar from Vikings (below) and my wonderful JackJack (in other words boyfriend) told me how good I am at drawing guys! He's done nothing but be supportive of me and my art lately, it's making me progress so much more. 
4. Talking of Mr. Jack, nothing has ever made me happier than this boy, but lately our relationship reached an all new high. We reacted better towards each other about so many things, alright I was still grumpy but I blame the hormones. We've had some lovely days together (even though I haven't seen him much recently due to a work trip to London and a first aid course), laughs and he keeps making me feel beautiful and talented.
5.  My book buying/hoarding is getting back to the point of needing to creatively stack them around my room again. Why does it make me happy? Because I'm getting closer to the right amount of books to fill my own library which I WILL have when me and Jack move out. I WILL HAVE IT.
6.  My apprenticeship is nearly over, my portfolio is to a high standard so I'm excited to see if I pass! Which seems extremely likely at this time. When I do finish my apprenticeship I get to carry on working where I do currently and go to a four day week so I can start my own business!
7.  I've started spending time with some old friends again and enjoying every moment of it, making people laugh and just messing around like complete twats. Making new friends in the process and also new food (briscakes).
8.  Today I ate the most amazing chocolate and beetroot cake, made by my work colleague and I got the keep A WHOLE HALF of it!
9.  I visited London for the first time ever and it was amazing (I still need to upload the photos...). It was such a culture shock but oh my goodness china town. Nuff said.
10.  I don't even know what to put as my final happy occurrence.. so many things have happened lately that have made me feel so so soo much better. I guess the best thing I can say is I saw lightening for the first time in my life. I've seen the flash and heard the thunder but never the actual forks or webs of the lightening itself. It was so dramatically beautiful and dangerous looking at the same time. I was so in awe and really wanted to get some photos but I was in the car at the time so I couldn't (plenty of people uploaded photos onto Facebook within like 5 minutes anyway.. how the fuck do they do that so quickly anyways?)

        
 

So there we go my top ten happy stuffs so far this month! c: Why not post your happy moments too? Big or small it doesn't matter, if you can think of at least one thing that's made you smile then you can use it to keep yourself smiling and keep the good times coming. 
Ohh fancy wiseman shit 'n' all that.




''Be happy with what you have and are, be generous with both and you won't have to hunt for happniess.'' - William E. Gladstone





Saturday 28 June 2014

Chapter 7, Get off that lazy ass bitch.



Good evening...night, it's been a while (I say a while I mean ages) since I bothered with this blog; therefore time to start paying attention again!
That's when you say 'yippy!'


So what's happened lately? Well my hairs back to red, I've nearly completed my apprenticeship and will do so with flying colours, my creativity is working it's way back into my system and I'm off on a trip for work soon which is going to be scary but amazing.

As it's late I won't bother writing too much, however here is a quick lowdown of what I plan to write about once I get back into the flow of things:

  • Sex. WHAT?! I hear you say? You'll see.
  • My latest works and creations.
  • New games I've been playing.
  • Lots, and I mean lots, of book AND film reviews.
  • Health tips (yes I am going down that route but since working for an organic company I've learnt a lot of interesting things)
  • And hopefully some make up tips and OOTD (outfit of the day) type stuff if I get around to it.
So that's all the stuff I can think of right now, hopefully it sounds interesting and more importantly, hopefully I actually get down to doing it all!

My motivation etc really hit an all time low again and it's slowly starting to pick back up with the good news I've been getting back from my NVQ work, driving lessons and the few bits of art/photography I've been managing to do. Which even though might not be of interest to you, is bloody amazing and I hope it continues to pick up! If it doesn't how on earth do I start up my business in September?

Oh yes there's that as well, I'll be starting my own business near the end of this year so watch out for all of that shit. 

And on that note, I'm off to do some motivational stuff (watching Disney films counts right?). Love, peace and here have a listen of this:


Saturday 15 February 2014

Chapter 6, Spread those wings bitch.


Well I've been a right lazy fucker with this blog, but even so I feel it's time for a more 'emotional' post as it were. 

Recently I have started to realize that I'm not allowing myself to be as free, happy and 'myself' as I should be. Some how I've managed to trap myself in this cage of attempting to be happy and care free, which is want I want, but not to trap myself in to thinking its how I need to be. Instead of letting myself be how I want to be, I'm making myself, which of course is the worst way to do it. 
I have this huge need to fulfill all my dreams, constantly making myself 'to do' lists which contains things like:
  • Get back into being creative and further my 'skills' ( I.e photography, drawing, music, writing etc etc.)
  • Experience new things
  • Read more
  • Play more games
  • Learn to drive
  • Start planning/gathering ideas for my future business
  • create a portfolio
  • Learn new things
  • Believe in myself and what I can do
And masses of other things to 'complete by the end of this week' or 'the end of this year' blah blah blah.
Although all these things I've set myself to do may be easy and some may be hard, it's not that that's bugging me, it's more of the fact I write all these lists but don't actually do any of the things I write down. I attempt to, but never finish. Unless its an amazing book, in which case I stay up way later than I should to finish it. 

That's another thing, time. I constantly wish I had more time to do all the things I want to do, even when I do have the time I feel far too tired and end up lazying around. Maybe it's just because I'm not used to early mornings and being up every day, so in that case I really hope I get used to it soon. Because I need to start motivating myself and become more energized. I just want to start enjoying all the little things again and learn to not waste one single minute thinking 'I could do this right now but nah I can't be fucked', that could mean anything from snuggling up with Mr.JackJack or going out and getting lost with my camera to capture any moments I wish. 

Now I could babble on for ages about all this 'live life how you want and live it to the full' shit, but I'll save the rest of it to bore you again another time. 

In the mean time, I ask you to take a second and ask if you think there is anything you could be doing right now that you're not? Is there anything you want to learn but don't have the confidence or motivation to? Do you see where I'm coming from with all this crap or do I look crazy? Maybe you're the one who's crazy?
Fuck knows, but hey, so long as you are proud of yourself and can say you're happy with at least one aspect of your life then what's so bad really? I've learnt a lot about appreciating the small things in life over the last year and It's helped me feel free to let my real self come out and enjoy life a bit more. 

Now that I'm not making sense any more, I think here is a good place to end this post.

''To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.''
- Oscar Wilde




Tuesday 21 January 2014

Chapter 5, new project.


Time for my first arty type post! 
I recently have been spending a lot, and I mean A LOT, of time thinking about my photography and drawing and all that crap, just wondering what on earth am I going to do with these so called talents I have? The art world is so hard to get into and get your work noticed in, that I feel so stuck. So I guess the first step is actually attempting to get together a proper portfolio, starting myself new projects every so often and actually completing them for once. Alright so all of this may not happen but fuckit. Anyways, after playing around at work (instead of working I know right, so rebellious) I came up with an idea which is kind of a form of photography... depends on which way you look at it. But I am hoping I can kick off this project and get it to be recognized as art rather than a pile of wank. 


Here's a little clue about my project, my cover photo for my Facebook page.
https://www.facebook.com/shanicemadphotoart?ref=hl


This is only a short post, but it's really just to let everyone know that I do have ideas whirling around and to anyone who cares, my portfolio will eventually be worthy of your time!
(Really I just want people to start noticing my work so I'm trying as much random crap as possible to see if it works)

Hope all you guys are letting yourself have the chance to be who and what you want to be, rather than just carrying on with life thinking 'this is how it's meant to be and how everyone lives it'. Cause even though yeah a lot of people don't live their dreams, it's more than likely because they just didn't get lucky OR just didn't have the strength to keep going. At times I feel like one of those people too, but as long as I keep instantly reacting to my creative instincts, something could happen. The same goes to you fuckers.
It's in no relation to the start of this post, but do what you wanna do and do it to your best.

OK soppy stupid moment over, hope some of you people are looking forward to seeing more of my work and blogging!




Saturday 18 January 2014

Chapter 4, Starbound #2.

So my friend kindly noted that I hadn't told you about the controls and story length of Starbound, therefore I bring you part two of my review (Hiphipfuckinghooray).

Main controls: Use your generic WASD to move around, A+D to move from side to side just like any side scrolling game and W to move forward. S makes you crouch, however it also helps you go down stairs and to lower platforms, whilst pressing Spacebar at the same time (also the jump button) which in my opinion is a bit of a pain in the ass but at least its not over complicated. Well for most anyway.
You have a secondary and primary attack, use your LMB for primary and RMB for secondary. This however only applies if you are not using a two-handed weapon. 
Scrolling your mouse changes what you have in your hands from your main slots, if your scrolly thing (yes I don't know the proper name) doesn't work you can use Z or just click on the slot with the item you want.
I is inventory, C for crafting, J for your journal, shift click on items to move them quickly from your inventory to a furnace for example or vice verse. 
Simple really ey?


Story length: To be honest there isn't one. It's a matter of travelling to different galaxies and planets (which as far as I know there's bloody loads), walking around every planet and killing all the beasties. So I guess you could say there is a certain 'length' to each planet, some can take half an hour and others over an hour. It really depends on how quickly or often you get your ass kicked. Some planets don't have a boss whilst others do.
So as long as you don't suck at games like me and die every 2 minutes, then you should complete planets quite quickly. Just don't forget to look for resources.

So there we go, I promise this reviews finished now.
OR IS IT?



Chapter 3, A Beautiful Disaster.


Ok so here is my first book review, I first wrote this on Goodreads (www.goodreads.com) so of course I've done the lazy thing of copying and pasting it from my profile. But there is nothing else I could possibly write to describe the greatness of this book, so here it is:


Haven't read this book? WHY THE HELL NOT?
I don't even enjoy novels completely revolving around love, but this one I could not put down. It's such an odd and wonderful story, describing a more than intense bond between two pretty messed up people. 
Well messed up isn't the right word, maybe completely crazy is better. 
Never before have I got so involved with a characters feelings, every time I read a few pages of Beautiful Disaster, I completely forgot who I was and ended up feeling angry and annoyed for no reason, simply because the of the characters situation, I had no idea I could be effected so badly by a book. 
Effected badly in a good way obviously.
But jeeeeesus this story is intense. 
And yet some how Jamie didn't need were wolfs or vampires or any other mystical beings, to create tension and fear. She has some how managed to just use emotions to engage the reader, now that to me is a great writer.


Ok so this review makes no sense, but how can you make sense of a book that describes a relationship that makes no sense at all?




Thursday 16 January 2014

Chapter Two, Starbound.

So you may or may not of heard, of Starbound. A 2D, side scrolling, space ship, occasional boss fight, minecrafty game. 


Basically you chose what your race is (human, fishman thing and several over things) and then you spawn on your ship, it gives you quests and all that rubbish. You travel from planet to planet, collecting different things like wood and iron to craft things just like in minecraft (only you don't need to remember the pattern for everything you make). Finding coal is ESSENTIAL or at least burning wood to create coal, this is because you use coal as fuel. No fuel? No travelling to new galaxies bitch.

I have to admit you can easily spend hours pimping your ship or building yourself a house on a planet you like (which you can call your home planet) but when it comes to kicking the shit out of all the monsters on the planets, not all of them will try to kill you though, I definitely say it is better to play this game with other people. Again just like minecraft, it's just not as fun if you haven't got anyone else to use as bait, or destroy their house or get them killed...

Weapons? These drop from any monsters you kill, the harder it is to kill the beasty the higher the DPS. Simple.

Graphics = Sweeeeeeet.
It may only be 2D pixels but I do enjoy the style and colours used. Who doesn't love a good old retro style game?

All in all, pretty damn awesome game.
HOPE Y'ALL ENJOYED ME FIRST GAME REVIEW. 







Chapter One..or something like that.


So I guess the first 'important' post would be one telling you about all the joyous stuff you will get to see:
  • Reviews: Books, games and other stuff
  • Hopefully if i get the time, i can post (maybe tutorials) eye makeup experiments
  • My photography and other art work
And lots of other wonderful, but probably quite boring, things!
~way to promote my blog
ANYHOW hopefully I can stop being so lazy and keep this blog going, SO to give me a helping hand I will also be asking you guys for things to try/review (and before you say, no I do not want to try fisting).



Look forward to boring you all!
c;