Chapter 13- So much to plan, so many reasons to be happy.

Recently, I have been in a constant 'must plan all the things' mode and a 'smile constantly' mode. 

One of the things I can't stop thinking about and planning, is mine and Jacks house. I have already created mood boards for the kitchen, bedroom and bathroom; we haven't even got solid plans for moving out yet. How sad is that?
But I seriously can't help it, as you can see from the image above I also have a problem with thinking far too much about what candles will be in each room. Our house shall have more candles than furniture and Jack will have to deal with it.

The far more important thing I need to start planning, is my business. Which I'm meant to be starting up in just a few weeks. I need to plan what I will be selling, where I will be selling it, how I will use my time and so much more. I will admit I feel extremely stuck. This is a huge venture and although many people are trying to start their own business these days, not many seem to succeed. So I also need to plan marketing strategies and all that crap.
My main problem here is, that there are far too many things I want to do. Full blame for this can be thrown at Kat Von D for being so wonderful that I couldn't help but aspire to use every single one of my talents in my business like she has managed to. I am so determined to do everything I feel I can but patience is not something that I bestow. Therefore the whole 'sensible' thing of 'taking it in steps', doesn't sound good enough to me.  

Anyway on to the second subject of today's blog: Happiness!
So many reasons for this emotion. In fact maybe not, maybe I just feel super happy at the moment? But there definitely are a few contributing factors. 

1. I passed my theory test!! Thank fricking goodness for that. I definitely suggest using Theorytestpro for revision. It's brilliant.
2. Even though Jacks glorious 'Finn The Human' like hair has been cut off, I can feel myself falling more and more in love with that boy. Which may be a strange thing to put on this list, but knowing our relationship is doing nothing but moving forward (even after nearly two years, which can be strange for young relationships) is definitely a good reason to be happy. 
3. I am a few weeks away from completing my apprenticeship and I cannot wait. I get a good qualification, get to keep my job where I work (obviously not as an apprentice) and I will be starting my own business. I can slowly feel my life moving forward;which is something I have been waiting for, for about 5 years now. 
4. I feel a lot better in myself in general. I feel healthier (apart from still smoking), more clever, less brain dead, wanted and I almost feel as if I will succeed in my life. 
5. I'm sat here trying to think of a point five and all I'm doing is looking at all my books and thinking 'mmmmmm'. So yes. My books make me insanely happy. More please. 
6. I have my first car. I HAVE MY FIRST CAR. And I haven't even done my practical test yet.... But here she is! I have named her Bertha. She was originally white but we gave her a makeover and now she is a 'pimpin' matte black (and no, the doors haven't been nicked this was taken before the doors were put back on)

7. OH and how could I forget? I turn 20 in a few weeks. This means I get to say good bye to the horrible 'teenager' label, yet still act like one. Perfect.

I think... that may be about it for now. All I currently know is I have a lot of shit to sort out and a lot to smile about. And I can guarantee you do to (mainly the 'smile about' part..hopefully...I bet you do).